Scarecrow or Sacred Cow?

So this morning I had the overwhelming desire to hear the song "Rain on the scarecrow" by John Mellencamp. Why? I don't know. Maybe it was the 2 Italian sausages I had for dinner last night. or the humidity. or the Zyrtec. take your pick, there are plenty of options, some times I pretty messed up. That's the thing. I shouldn't like Mellencamp or Springsteen but I do. They are such whacked out liberal motards it makes my brain explode. I guess I have learned to compartmentalize different parts of our life. I don't go to them for life advice. I go to them to hear them strum their guitar and play my song. It's mine when I pay for it or download it illegally from Napster. (not that I condone "stealing") You know whats funny? How we can sit down to write something and something else comes out. Maybe the above paragraph is just so the juices would start to flow. This is what I was meant to write:

Are you angry at God? I am pretty sure I am sometimes. It's amazing to admit that. Mainly because when I think about all He has done for me, I have absolutely ZERO right to be angry. I think everyone looks for something or someone to blame when life doesn't work out like it supposed to. I won't go so far as to say that it didn't work out because you subconsciously wouldn't let it work out, and rather than accept responsibility for your own shortcomings, you looked for a scapegoat. I wouldn't say that about you because then, it would be true regarding myself. I'm cynical, not honest.

Seriously though. Why are you angry at Him? Why am I angry at Him? Like, I'm going to tell you. But just think about that once in awhile. I know I will be. It just struck me as strange that the one being that CAN do something about a situation, we hold the biggest grudge against. What is up with that? I think if God could say it, he would. He would shout it so loud and in every language so that all could hear : WTF! But that isn't God's nature. Thankfully, he is patient with us. Especially with me. Sometimes we are led to a place where all we want to do is say "I'm sorry" and the list is as endless as our torments. When matched against perfect Love, even our cleanest gowns are mere dirty rags. Geesh, can i use anymore cheesy uber Christian references? If I wanted to, it would be easy. But I'm not going to go.
I'm just going to work out the issues and know that they will work out time.

Something else on my mind lately. At your core, do you know who you are? Are you going to change for someone? I don't mean preferring the coffee with cream or not. But are you going to capitulate on your essence for the sake of someone else? Don't be so quick to answer. If you have ever been alone in this life, then don't be flip. I can understand people that do. Want to know hell on earth? Be truly alone for a month. Unless you have walked that road, don't be so quick to judge those that have. At first, it is easy to think the rest of the world is crazy, but eventually, the start reality of emptiness forces us to reconsider that view. think of it in sports parlance : Scoreboard don't lie. I'm not advocating changing who you are in order to have something or someone. I'm just stating that I understand people that do. At some point, you can't base your happiness on if or when you have a relationship with another person. Most people in our lives come and go. It is hard letting some of them go as they truly have made a mark on your heart. But sometimes, we have to let them go and sometimes we have to realize that we can't change who we are. If we sacrifice ourselves at the alter of someone else, what will be left when that person is gone?

I know this is really messed up blog posting. 3 major topics? yeah, I know. Thanks for reading.