Tuesday, August 17, 2010

The first one...

It is a grevious thing
Dealing with death
Unwinding the wound
Untimely in the ultimatum
Packing the packages
Details and duties
Repeating robotically
Wondering when and why
Searching the scriptures
Questioning the questions
Answering with anguish
Letting go of the leaving
Clinging to the comforts
Regretting the reasons
Dazed and dutiful
Smiling and sorrowful
Dealing with death
-- MS 8/16/2010

Thursday, August 12, 2010

sums it up

Thursday, August 5, 2010

I don't know how to describe everything. People keep asking me how am I doing...

I don't know.


I just know where I belong. I miss my friend. Every day I keep expecting her to walk in, but she never does. I keep expecting to here her call me "springtime", but it never comes. I keep telling myself that she is in a better place and this will all get easier with time, but right now I don't believe it. I watch other people that I love and care for struggling to smile and it hurts.

I am thankful to God for the gift of my friend. I don't think I appreciated her enough while she was here. I guess that is the human thing right? as cinderalla sings "don't know what you got till its gone". Tru dat.


yeah.

I miss you Annie. I miss how things were before you left. I know I could have been a better friend and I hope you can't see us down here right now. There are no tears in heaven, but there are a lot here on earth.