To care for someone and get wrapped up into their vortex of confusion are two different things. If we are to "rescue" someone, they should at least realize that they are swirling their own personal drain. But what if they are happy? I guess it is only in looking down into their swirling that we can see a hand reaching up. Maybe they don't want or need "rescuing".
I know you will probably never read this, but if you do.... I want you to know something. It's not because I don't care. I do. I really do. But I can't let myself fall for you right now. I have to take a step back emotionally and let you come to me. Yes, it hurts because I miss you a lot. I wish for a lot of things to change, but only you can want them to change. We both deserve better. I know I do. I don't want to be a distraction or an obligation. Honestly, I don't think you want me to be that either. All I can do is open the door. And life will move on for both of us. We won't be in this place long. I can't make the decision for you and I wouldn't if I could. But you will have to decide soon. It comes down to this: I know exactly what I would do to make it work. Commitment doesn't scare me. Do you? We can be friends someday. But not until I resolve in my heart and my mind where I will be.
"I guess I'll just stay out here,
Until I know the coast the clear
sit and watch the tide roll in
till I catch my second wind"
-- Daryl Worley
