So lately I've been feeling this creative surge. Well, since the cardio machine last night. I guess that is the best place to sort things out. I haven't written this much for a long time. Or, rather, been this inspired. It's kind of nice, but most inspiration comes from tragedy... Or does it?


We always have a reference point for everything. Every heart ache, happiness, joy, disappointment, has a reference point. Kind of like high water marks. Or even low water marks. For example. Some situation doesn't go as planned. One might say"gee, that sucks. But not as bad as this previous experience". Maybe that is why bad stuf happens? What if something minor going wrong is the only disappointment in your life you have experienced? Then it is TEOWATKI for you. For someone else, Under the same situations, they wouldn't even know it happened. So it's relative. The human experience, it's all relative. The goods, the bads, the in betweens. In life, we only have a few extreme highs and a few extreme lows. Everything else is just white noise against those two extremes.

So the point to remember in this ramble is that when something really crappy happens you may be getting a new reference point. The inverse is true as well. you may not be getting a new reference point. So that can help you cope. It's not as bad as you think.

I remember one of those long nights on the back porch after Annie died. Jason said. ". This is by far a new low for me. No matter what happens from now on, it won't hurt this bad". I understood intellicually then, but I am learning more emotionally how true that is.